Looking Queer : Body Image and Identity in Lesbian, Bisexual, Gay, and Transgender Communities

About the Editor xiii Contributors xv Acknowledgments xxvii Introduction: Looking Queer xxix Dawn Atkins SECTION A: WOMEN, WIMMIN, WOMYN PART 1: CONSTRUCTING OURSELVES 3(66) Beauty Is a Beast 3(2) Amy Edgington Living into My Body 5(12) Nancy Barron Beauty Mandates and the Appearance Obsession: Are Lesbians Any Better Off? 17(10) Anna Myers Jennifer Taub Jessica F. Morris Esther D. Rothblum Resistance and Reinscription: Sexual Identity and Body Image Among Lesbian and Bisexual Women 27(10) Sara Auerbach Rebekah Bradley Contradictions of the Spirit: Theories and Realities of Lesbian Body Image 37(10) Naomi Tucker Lesbians and the (Re/De)Construction of the Female Body 47(22) Diane Griffin Crowder PART 2: LOOKING DYKE 69(40) The Ugly Dyke 69(4) Wendy Chapkis Woman Eats Brownies, Gets Laid 73(6) Greta Christina Professionally Q: A Day in the Life of a Career Counselor 79(4) Christine Cress The Beauty Norm: A Femme Strikes Back 83(4) Anna Myers It's Not What You Wear: Fashioning a Queer Identity 87(6) Kate Woolfe Hair Piece 93(6) Andrea Askowitz Out-of-Body Experiences 99(8) Michele Spring-Moore Movement 107(2) Amy Edgington PART 3: SEARCHING A WAY OUT 109(20) Vanishing Point 109(2) Margo Solod Autobiographical Slices: Life in the Queer Kitchen 111(4) Amy Gilley That Other Girl Who Is Not Me 115(4) Alexa Leigh Moving Like a Dyke 119(6) Clancy McKenna Tatto Me 125(4) Catherine Lundoff PART 4: A WOMAN'S LOVE HEALS 129(24) Mirror 129(2) Nina Silver Big Girl 131(6) Drama Rose Ode to My Vibrator 137(4) Susanna Trnka Dressing Room Blues 141(4) Claire Hueholt My Ideal Becoming Real 145(8) Susie Bullington PART 5: COMING OUT, LEAVING BEHIND 153(28) Coming Out 153(2) Darcy Wakefield Power, Beauty, and Dykes 155(6) Silva Tenenbein My Big Fat Body 161(2) Anna Snoute My Mother's Journals 163(2) Jo Schneiderman Be, Being, Becoming 165(12) Michelle Bancroft Boogeywoman 177(4) Amy Edgington SECTION B: ONE, BOTH, NEITHER PART 6: CROSSING THE DIVIDE 181(24) The Razor's Edge: Walking the Fine Line of the Self 181(8) Julie Waters My Life As an Erroneous Sonogram 189(10) Marcelle Cook-Daniels Loree Cook-Daniels Holding My Breath Underwater 199(6) Michael Hernandez PART 7: SQUARE PEGS 205(28) Affronting Reason 205(16) Cheryl Chase In(to) Visibility: Intersexuality in the Field of Queer 221(6) Morgan Holmes Agdistis' Children: Living Bi-Gendered in a Single-Gendered World 227(6) Raven Kaldera PART 8: BOYZ, GRRLS, QUEERS 233(18) Flunking Basic Gender Training: Butches and Butch Style Today 233(6) Sherrie A. Inness Frankly Feminine: Rejecting and Embracing Standards for Beauty 239(2) Laura Cole Faggot Rant 241(4) Sandra Lee Golvin Beautiful Boy: A Girl's Own Story 245(6) Boye SECTION C: BEYOND THE PALE PART 9: COLOR VISION 251(48) ``I'' is for Intersection: At the Crux of Black and White and Gay and Straight 251(8) Layli Phillips Piece of Man: Redefining the Myths Around the Black Male Phallus 259(12) Conrad R. Pegues Mapping My Desire: Hunting Down the Male Erotic in India and America 271(6) Sandip Roy ``Underssing the Oriental Boy'': The Gay Asian in the Social Imaginary of the Gay White Male 277(18) Paul EeNam Park Hagland I Like My Chi-i-sa-i Body Now 295(4) Donna Tsuyuko Tanigawa PART 10: ACCESS TO THE LOOK 299(28) When Pigs Have Wings 299(8) Mark O'Brien Inside/Outside 307(6) Julia Dolphin Trahan Body Language 313(2) Kenny Fries The Imperfections of Beauty: On Being Gay and Disabled 315(8) Kenny Fries Love Poem 323(4) Kenny Fries SECTION D: MEN, BOYS, AND TROLLS PART 11: THE UNIFORM DOESN'T FIT 327(46) Queer Crash Test Dummies: Theory, Aging, and Embodied Problematics 327(18) Dean Kiley Laws of Desire: Has Our Imagery Become Overidealized? 345(10) William J. Mann A Matter of Size 355(4) Patrick Giles Justify My Love Handles: How the Queer Community Trims the Fat 359(8) Jay Blotcher Fatness and the Feminized Man 367(6) Ganapati S. Durgadas PART 12: FEELING THE BURN 373(40) But to Hear THEM Tell It... Or: Looksism, Beauty's Evil Stepsister 373(10) Gene-Michael Higney Reps 383(6) Jim Provenzano Your Dreamworld Is Just About to End 389(4) Frank Martinez Lester Learning the F Words 393(20) John Stoltenberg PART 13: REENVISIONING MEN 413(42) Why I Hate The Beatles and The Supremes 413(2) Ozzie Diaz-Duque If Only I Were Cute: Looksism and Internalized Homophobia in the Gay Male Community 415(16) Andrew J. Feraios More Than a Sum of Parts: Rescuing the Male Body from Fundamentalism 431(8) Darrell g.h. Schramm Skinny, ``White'' Chicks and Hung, Buff Boys: Queer Sex Spaces and Their Discontents 439(16) Jill Nagle Index 455